However, I have been noticing how much due dates seem to mess with pregnant ladies' minds...
Due dates seem to play into our ridiculous notion of being in control. We like to feel like we're in the driver's seat, like we're in charge. In anticipating a due date, we plan and organize and prepare - in hopes of being independent, and totally "put together." The silliness in all of this is that we are not in control, as much as we'd like to think it, we are not in the driver's seat. We are not in charge. The older I get, the more I am learning that I am not independent and I will never be put together, either.
So, yes, the baby and I are technically "overdue". He did not arrive per my Google calendar appointment.
But here's the thing... My blood pressure is low, his heartbeat is perfect, we are both doing just great. So I hesitate...no, I hate...calling my little buddy "overdue". "Overdue" comes with connotations of being late, untimely, or delinquent in some way. Yuck, yuck, yuck.
Our little boy is not overdue. He will come at the right time. We are trying to wait patiently, with lots of trust and faith. The waiting is an exercise in trust and faith. Faith to believe that the Lord's timing is absolutely perfect, trust in knowing His plans for my baby and I are good. Faith to believe that my present anxiousness and
And heck, if can't let go of control, being in charge, and being put together and meticulously scheduled now, what in the world is my life going to be like when kids really do enter the picture...in all of their glorious messiness and spontaneity? Lord, help me.
PS - Did I mention we're planning a home birth? Like, not in a hospital? I can feel eyebrows raising... More on this later. :)
You go girl! I tried to talk Nicholas into a home birth, but he wouldn't budge. Said it would freak him out too much. *sigh* on that note, that's absolutely fantastic that you've got your husband by your side 100% for it! Nothing better!
ReplyDeleteBest wishes to you! And a prayer for a safe, and easy delivery!
I'm interested in knowing why you think a home birth is a better choice? Is it safer? healthier? for anyone?
ReplyDeleteYay for homebirth! Anonymous can do some research on his/her own to find out why it is a great choice - you don't have to justify your decision to anyone.
ReplyDeleteHey, I stopped by because someone sent me a link. I still need to do the linking to figure out why this person knows you. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm (due) in June some time with my sixth. The first five were born in hospitals with intervention and everything. I'll tell you, I am nervous about this one. Why? Because I plan a homebirth as well. I am tired - no TIRED - of doctors thinking the only way a baby can be born is how they say it. I am tired of being induced. I'm tired of nurses coming in constantly and bugging you when you are trying to rest. I'm tired of - well - you get the point.
Things can happen to you, your baby, and the whole process with or with out a doctor. I think people have forgotten that women used to do this alone. Yes, there were deaths associated with it. But, there still are.
Good luck and blessings to you with your little bundle whenever it arrives.
Rachel - Good for you! Many blessings as you plan your home birth!
ReplyDeleteJenna - I have heard such marvelous things about you! LOVE your mama. :)
Dusti - Thank you, thank you! Have really appreciated your encouragement. :)
This was right on. Love it. Thank you!
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